tighter there; and when he brought his strength to bear on that
hand and it yielded, this was closed again. There was a hurry, too,
in all his thoughts, a turbulent and heated working of his heart,
that contended against resignation. If, for a moment, he did feel
resigned, then his wife and child who had to live after him, seemed
to protest and to make it a selfish thing.
But, all this was at first. Before long, the consideration that
there was no disgrace in the fate he must meet, and that numbers
went the same road wrongfully, and trod it firmly every day,
sprang up to stimulate him. Next followed the thought that much
of the future peace of mind enjoyable by the dear ones, depended
on his quiet fortitude. So, by degrees he calmed into the better
state, when he could raise his thoughts much higher and draw
comfort down.
Before it had set in dark on the night of his condemnation, he
had travelled thus far on his last way. Being allowed to purchase
the means of writing, and a light, he sat down to write until such
time as the prison lamps should be extinguished.
He wrote a long letter to Lucie, showing her that he had known
nothing of her father’s imprisonment, until he had heard of it from
herself, and that he had been as ignorant as she of his father’s and
uncle’s responsibility for that misery, until the paper had been